Day 13 miss corona

I'm still here.Still struggling with my studies and a bit of myself.I had been distance myself lately from my friends and social media.I dont really know why but a part of me is so scared about reality.It felt like people is doing really good with their lives but me.. I'm still the same me still stuck in the middle of the road trying to wait for any car to pick me up.Kind like that.

Anyway,I'm almost done reading When Breath Becomes Air and in chapter 2 where it talks about what the author felt like being a patient instead of a doctor,really makes me sad from some reason and makes me realize that how lucky are we to be able to live my life right now and still surrounded by people who actually love me.

Does not plan to write much.Going to listen to Aiman Azlan podcast.Bye for now.

Day 12 Covid19

It's 11:17pm and I'm here forcing myself to write something though I'm so worn out and just want to sleep.

To be frank,I think that I'm still really slow in my studies.Tried to learn many lectures but able to finish one.It's okay.At least I learn.Hmm am I really can say that cause I've been saying that for the past 2 weeks.Like common man.

Moving on,I run quite an errands today fortunately.Pick up my moms meds at BB,bought groceries again.Wait just that but i'm certain that it's a lot to me cause lately I've been quite passive for the past few days.

Heads up for the better tomorrow and gotta be REALLY prepared for my online learning.UGHH so scaryy but gotta to go through it at the end of the day.

Day 11 maybe~

Okay,I got to admit that i'm FAILed in  this daily writing thing.I'll try to make it worth it.Okay so today I'm not studying much and it is not like I was being disturbed by the kids or fall asleep like that,it is because i don't feel like to study.It's weird plus devastating.But, i try to make it positive by accepting it and reward today as my Free Day! AHA!

Anyway,I think i might have binge watching Brooklyn 99,they are hilarous and i just love jake peralta.He is the funniest! Need to control myself from binge watching instead Dear self,you can only watch it when you eating!

OH! I bought a book,The Qur'an.It is a quran translating books from UK but bought it for quite affordable price at book depository? Anyway,Vivy Yusoff had mention about the book in her Ramadhan vlog last year,and I thought as Ramadhan 2020 is just 3 weeks coming..maybe I should buy one for me.

And another thing,starting from today,I'm going to start writing 10 things that I'm grateful of.Yes,i'll try to be more persistent with it.

Last but not least,just a moment ago,I bought one of Aiman Azlan webwinars.Lol.Have been contemplating with myself whether its worth it or not.So,why not give it a try shall we.Will update soon,bye,

Day 8 Words of the Day

Words - When Breath Becomes Air

1) Polymath - a person wide knowledge/learning, a person who knows a lot of many different subjects

• He was a polymath and was offered a history scholarship before opting for medicine

2) Maudlin -tearfully/weakly emotional,foolishly sentimental

• a maudlin story of a little orphan and her lost dog.

3) Austere - stern and cold in appearance or manner

• He was an austere man,with a rigidly puritanical outlook

                  - markedly simple,plain

• an austere style of writing 

4) Prose - written or spoken language in its ordinary form,without metrical structure

• a short story in prose
• her prose was quite lyrical,almost poetic in a way

5) Brim - to fill or be full to the top

• She's brimming with confidence
• The philanthropist naturally loves his fellow man and is brimming with first-order desires to help.

6) Poignant - evoking a keen sense of sadness or regret.

• A poignant reminder of the passing of time
• The photograph awakens poignant memories of happier days,

7) Wry - showing that you find a bad or difficult situation slightly funny

• a wry smile/comment

8) Gaunt - very thin,especially because of sickness or hunger.

• Her face was gaunt and grey

- empty and not attractive

• The house looked gaunt and unwelcoming

9) Haggard - looking exhausted and unwell,especially from fatigue,worry or suffering.

• She was pale and haggard
• He'd been drinking the night before and was looking abit haggard.

10) Intricacy - the quality or state of being intricate (complicated)

• She admired the composition for its beauty and intricacy.
• I enjoyed the film,but I couldn;t follow all the intricacies of the plot.

11) Commiserate - express/ feel sympathy or pity (sympathize)

• She went over to commiserate with Rose on her unfortunate circumstances,
• I began by commiserating with her over the defeat.

12) Plausible - seeming reasonable or probable

• a plausible explanation would seem to be that people are fed up with the government
• ...The plausibility of the theory

13) Juxtaposed - to put things that are not similar side by side

• Black and white photos of slums were starkly(obvious) juxtaposed with colour images
• The exhibition juxtaposes Picasso's early drawing with some of his later works.

14) Therein - in or into a particular place,thing

• It is a thrilling tale of a haunted house and the ghosts therein.
• therein lies the problem

15) Ferocious - savagely fierce,cruel,or violent

• a ferocious predator
• a ferocious butchery of women and children.

16) Cinch - something that is very easy or certain to be done/happen

• Training a puppy is a cinch of you bribe him with treats
• His advice cinched her decision to accept the offer.

17) Meek - quiet,gentle and easily imposed

• She brought her meek little husband along
• She seemed so very meek and mild.

18) Reprieve - an escape from a bad situation or experience

• the injection provided a temporary reprieve from the pain

19) Culmination - The point at which an event or series of events ends,having developed until it reaches this point.

• Winnig first prize was the culmination of years of practice and hard work
• The book was a fitting culmination to his career.

20) Amalgam - a mixture or blend

• a curious amalgam of the traditional and the modern

Day 7 Quarantine

Heyyy people,I'm already sleepy and it already past 12 now so it's actually day 8 quarantine life if we followed by the date but no one cares haha.

So,I got most of the things done today Alhamdulillah except that I still woke up late which is at 9am.But still,after Subuh prayer I forced myself not to sleep in bed instead go to the living room and decided to lie down for a while.Because I sleep quite late the other night so my eyes got really heavy and i ended up sleeping for 1 hour and a half.

Then I woke up and do yoga for half and hour then have my breakfast.Didn't do much actually in the morning cause i need to clean the room,shower the kids and entertained them i supposed?

But things gone quite well in the evening cause i finally finish a lecture note.Which is continuation of yesterday lecture notes.Lol.Funnier than i thought it could be.Anyway struggling with myself to continue study and ended up taking a break quite a few times but as long as I did studying i think it is enough.You know,to begin something is really hard compare to maintain your habit;=.So I just nurture this positive thought in my mind that it is okay if you didn't do much as long as you start it.We will do better.

Did my evening yoga.Another weight loss yoga with adriene which totally helpful to maintain my body flexibility and what not.But today,I kind of profound myself not really into reading.Perhaprs I'm too eager for my new books to be delivered.UGhhhhhhhh.Waiting is the hardest part when you order online!

Anyway.i'm gonna sleep now cause I HAVE TO wake up early tomorrow.See yall

Day 6 Quarantine Covid-19

Better late then never,right?
So update on day 6 of quarantine due to coronavirus.I think today is the most productive day since quarantine that I had so far. Did most of my to do list and about to do my final check list after this then I'm gonna head up to sleep.

So,today is Monday and it has been a week or so since announcement from Dr Effat regarding this chaotic-unexpected-shocking news of 3 weeks 'pure holiday'.

Wake up at 9am albeit sleeping early the night before.Then did 30 minutes yoga and straight to shower because i woke up late.Supposed to wake up at 7 my friends.Lol.
Then,I make my breakfast simply just a platter of fruits and orange juice.Oh,I had bihun goreng that my mom made the night before but it is still delish.

Then,I study.Hmm,maybe i should say 'I try to study' cause i kind of study but got too overwhelm hence i stop for a while (1 hour,hmm) watching Dr Kim drama.Then,I found myself guilty watching the drama then i start to study again.Haha. And unsurprisingly I found myself dozed off and end up sleeping obviously.So,are you sure you're having a productive day? hahaha

Well,my evening still not productive...Not sure what exactly am I doing.But then around 6.45pm like that I decided to do my reading cause yesterday I didn't able to get myself touch the book so lets read.Currently rading 'Love for the Imperfect Things' by Haemin Sunim.Such a positive-vibrant-motivated books to read.It's actually my second books from Haemin Sunim that I bought,The first one is The Things You See When You Slow Down.Also a perfect book for someone who is in need for some sort of support in life other than family and friends.

Then,my night becomes productive.I actually studying! Like Finally people! So,i tried to finish one lecture from 9-11pm but unable to do so.It's okay cause at least I'm studying :) We gonna do much better tomorrow.

So now,I'm going to continue freshing/try to finish my turkish story book.Will talk about that letter for sure.Bye for now.