Heyyy people,I'm already sleepy and it already past 12 now so it's actually day 8 quarantine life if we followed by the date but no one cares haha.
So,I got most of the things done today Alhamdulillah except that I still woke up late which is at 9am.But still,after Subuh prayer I forced myself not to sleep in bed instead go to the living room and decided to lie down for a while.Because I sleep quite late the other night so my eyes got really heavy and i ended up sleeping for 1 hour and a half.
Then I woke up and do yoga for half and hour then have my breakfast.Didn't do much actually in the morning cause i need to clean the room,shower the kids and entertained them i supposed?
But things gone quite well in the evening cause i finally finish a lecture note.Which is continuation of yesterday lecture notes.Lol.Funnier than i thought it could be.Anyway struggling with myself to continue study and ended up taking a break quite a few times but as long as I did studying i think it is enough.You know,to begin something is really hard compare to maintain your habit;=.So I just nurture this positive thought in my mind that it is okay if you didn't do much as long as you start it.We will do better.
Did my evening yoga.Another weight loss yoga with adriene which totally helpful to maintain my body flexibility and what not.But today,I kind of profound myself not really into reading.Perhaprs I'm too eager for my new books to be delivered.UGhhhhhhhh.Waiting is the hardest part when you order online!
Anyway.i'm gonna sleep now cause I HAVE TO wake up early tomorrow.See yall
Tuesday, 24 March 2020
Monday, 23 March 2020
Day 6 Quarantine Covid-19
Better late then never,right?
So update on day 6 of quarantine due to coronavirus.I think today is the most productive day since quarantine that I had so far. Did most of my to do list and about to do my final check list after this then I'm gonna head up to sleep.
So,today is Monday and it has been a week or so since announcement from Dr Effat regarding this chaotic-unexpected-shocking news of 3 weeks 'pure holiday'.
Wake up at 9am albeit sleeping early the night before.Then did 30 minutes yoga and straight to shower because i woke up late.Supposed to wake up at 7 my friends.Lol.
Then,I make my breakfast simply just a platter of fruits and orange juice.Oh,I had bihun goreng that my mom made the night before but it is still delish.
Then,I study.Hmm,maybe i should say 'I try to study' cause i kind of study but got too overwhelm hence i stop for a while (1 hour,hmm) watching Dr Kim drama.Then,I found myself guilty watching the drama then i start to study again.Haha. And unsurprisingly I found myself dozed off and end up sleeping obviously.So,are you sure you're having a productive day? hahaha
Well,my evening still not productive...Not sure what exactly am I doing.But then around 6.45pm like that I decided to do my reading cause yesterday I didn't able to get myself touch the book so lets read.Currently rading 'Love for the Imperfect Things' by Haemin Sunim.Such a positive-vibrant-motivated books to read.It's actually my second books from Haemin Sunim that I bought,The first one is The Things You See When You Slow Down.Also a perfect book for someone who is in need for some sort of support in life other than family and friends.
Then,my night becomes productive.I actually studying! Like Finally people! So,i tried to finish one lecture from 9-11pm but unable to do so.It's okay cause at least I'm studying :) We gonna do much better tomorrow.
So now,I'm going to continue freshing/try to finish my turkish story book.Will talk about that letter for sure.Bye for now.
So update on day 6 of quarantine due to coronavirus.I think today is the most productive day since quarantine that I had so far. Did most of my to do list and about to do my final check list after this then I'm gonna head up to sleep.
So,today is Monday and it has been a week or so since announcement from Dr Effat regarding this chaotic-unexpected-shocking news of 3 weeks 'pure holiday'.
Wake up at 9am albeit sleeping early the night before.Then did 30 minutes yoga and straight to shower because i woke up late.Supposed to wake up at 7 my friends.Lol.
Then,I make my breakfast simply just a platter of fruits and orange juice.Oh,I had bihun goreng that my mom made the night before but it is still delish.
Then,I study.Hmm,maybe i should say 'I try to study' cause i kind of study but got too overwhelm hence i stop for a while (1 hour,hmm) watching Dr Kim drama.Then,I found myself guilty watching the drama then i start to study again.Haha. And unsurprisingly I found myself dozed off and end up sleeping obviously.So,are you sure you're having a productive day? hahaha
Well,my evening still not productive...Not sure what exactly am I doing.But then around 6.45pm like that I decided to do my reading cause yesterday I didn't able to get myself touch the book so lets read.Currently rading 'Love for the Imperfect Things' by Haemin Sunim.Such a positive-vibrant-motivated books to read.It's actually my second books from Haemin Sunim that I bought,The first one is The Things You See When You Slow Down.Also a perfect book for someone who is in need for some sort of support in life other than family and friends.
Then,my night becomes productive.I actually studying! Like Finally people! So,i tried to finish one lecture from 9-11pm but unable to do so.It's okay cause at least I'm studying :) We gonna do much better tomorrow.
So now,I'm going to continue freshing/try to finish my turkish story book.Will talk about that letter for sure.Bye for now.
Tuesday, 31 December 2019
GoodBye 2019
Last day of 2019,and here i am writing to myself.
Lets recap.
To be frank,i'm not sure how 2019 changed my,whether I've been better,still the same me,or I've grew up.Seriously,how do people acknowledge that? I'm really amuse of people whom can measure of their achievement.
The first half of 2019,I think a bit sweet and sour.There are happy and bad moments but one things that still stay with me till today is my self-doubt,my self-hatred,my self-conscious.Oh dear me,please just love yourself,it's okay if people felt uncomfortable or leave you.You must love yourself and always prioritise your own need not other people.
Writing on the last day of 2019 somewhat makes me feel empty,sad,heartbroken because i know that I can do soo much but i'm myself retained my own self to stop doing it.
SELF-LOVE
-still lack of it,which i do not know why.Sometimes the feeling of acceptance by other people really makes me happy but to get that feeling is not easily cause not every people will be around you or love you.So you have to love yourself.
Start making decision my dear self.
Lets focus on 2020 and get all the things that you want to do!
Lets recap.
To be frank,i'm not sure how 2019 changed my,whether I've been better,still the same me,or I've grew up.Seriously,how do people acknowledge that? I'm really amuse of people whom can measure of their achievement.
The first half of 2019,I think a bit sweet and sour.There are happy and bad moments but one things that still stay with me till today is my self-doubt,my self-hatred,my self-conscious.Oh dear me,please just love yourself,it's okay if people felt uncomfortable or leave you.You must love yourself and always prioritise your own need not other people.
Writing on the last day of 2019 somewhat makes me feel empty,sad,heartbroken because i know that I can do soo much but i'm myself retained my own self to stop doing it.
SELF-LOVE
-still lack of it,which i do not know why.Sometimes the feeling of acceptance by other people really makes me happy but to get that feeling is not easily cause not every people will be around you or love you.So you have to love yourself.
Start making decision my dear self.
Lets focus on 2020 and get all the things that you want to do!
Tuesday, 20 August 2019
Kashmir in Heart
It has been a week seen i got back from kashmir,but i can't stop thinking about the mesmerizing beautiful place i have been there.The people,place,environment there keep coming back to me every minute.Seeing kids here at Malaysia keep my memory coming back at the kids there at Kashmir.
Ponder on what they were doing right now,are they healthy? Do they miss me as much as I miss them even it's just a brief moment together? Do they already start school? Do they still remember my name?
Oh me, i should really move on.I'm starting university just in a week,need to be mentally and physically prepared about it.It's gonna be a tough,long journey.Am i ready for it?
My trip to Kashmir really opened my heart,mind and eye! My perspective about people around me and about myself is totally different than what i used to think.Albeit the trip was totally upside down due to political issue happened at Kashmir at the moment,i'm still thankful with the time i blend with villagers there :)
Well,it's time to move on dear me,let's work hard and make sure you will be rich so that one day you can come back to the village and donate money to all the kids there endlessly. InsyaAllah.
My prayers and thought will always be with you kids there and I can't wait to meet you again in the future.Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan anda semua .Amin
Ponder on what they were doing right now,are they healthy? Do they miss me as much as I miss them even it's just a brief moment together? Do they already start school? Do they still remember my name?
Oh me, i should really move on.I'm starting university just in a week,need to be mentally and physically prepared about it.It's gonna be a tough,long journey.Am i ready for it?
My trip to Kashmir really opened my heart,mind and eye! My perspective about people around me and about myself is totally different than what i used to think.Albeit the trip was totally upside down due to political issue happened at Kashmir at the moment,i'm still thankful with the time i blend with villagers there :)
Well,it's time to move on dear me,let's work hard and make sure you will be rich so that one day you can come back to the village and donate money to all the kids there endlessly. InsyaAllah.
My prayers and thought will always be with you kids there and I can't wait to meet you again in the future.Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan anda semua .Amin
Sunday, 21 July 2019
Akrasia
So i learnt a pharse that i believe is happening to me, it is akrasia.A few minutes ago,i decided to go on google and search for best article.Many choices come up indeed,and i pick one of this suggested article called the akrasia effect hence acknowledge the real meaning of akrasia.Akrasia is doing someting else when you know you should be doing other things that is important for you or in a simplest word,procrastination.
Correct! that was what i have been experienced for the past few days.The need of me to study for a better future of myself but instead i am wasting my time on netflix,youtube,let alone instagram!
I was sooo unbelievably optimistic of what i want to do but then i just got lazy and my mind went straight to by present self instead of thinking about the future me.
Upon reading the article,it suggested 3 strategy in order for you to stop being an akrasia.And suprisingly the first strategy is something that i already did but still it did not work out.
Basically,the first strategy is by having a commitment device.In that article,it says that Victor Hugo,a book writer,told his assistant to lock all of his clothes in a chest and leave him with just a shawl! This was supposed to make sure that he did not go out and just spend time in his home,writing book which is about to reach its deadlines.Hence he succeed in writing the book before the freakin deadlin!
So did i, i do have my commitment device to study,where i move the not used dining table in the kitchen into my room,so that i have a big study space area to do my study.But still I got lazy and my mind just out of order.
So,I will try again,trying to resist the needs of my present self and focus on the future me.
The End.
Correct! that was what i have been experienced for the past few days.The need of me to study for a better future of myself but instead i am wasting my time on netflix,youtube,let alone instagram!
I was sooo unbelievably optimistic of what i want to do but then i just got lazy and my mind went straight to by present self instead of thinking about the future me.
Upon reading the article,it suggested 3 strategy in order for you to stop being an akrasia.And suprisingly the first strategy is something that i already did but still it did not work out.
Basically,the first strategy is by having a commitment device.In that article,it says that Victor Hugo,a book writer,told his assistant to lock all of his clothes in a chest and leave him with just a shawl! This was supposed to make sure that he did not go out and just spend time in his home,writing book which is about to reach its deadlines.Hence he succeed in writing the book before the freakin deadlin!
So did i, i do have my commitment device to study,where i move the not used dining table in the kitchen into my room,so that i have a big study space area to do my study.But still I got lazy and my mind just out of order.
So,I will try again,trying to resist the needs of my present self and focus on the future me.
The End.
Thursday, 18 July 2019
Time to talk
It's currently semester break! This semester break takes about one month and a half,so basically what I had planned for myself is for a CHANGE.A change to a better me.This are the list that I want to do,let me share
1)Revision for the last 3 module in preparation for pro exam next year.
2)Learn more vocabulary
3)Speak up
4)Love myself more and stop comparing myself with other
Thats it! Oh and good news,yesterday I just got my final semester 2 result and I passed! For sem 2 i got B,sem 1 I got C.That's truly satisfying because I know the amount of blood,sweat and tears I had put throughout the journet :)
So continue,lately I just want to focus on myself and one thing that I notice about myself is that I tend to avoid things rather than face it.For example,when someone whom i am uncomfortable to speak text me,i tend to avoid the message by not opening whatsapp for a day.Then,next day or when i feel like to read the message or sometimes accidently,then i'll face it.
I think that is something i should not do because it seems unprofessional in other way,so i will try to change the habit.
Next, the thing that i don't favour about myself is,i'm not really good in conversation whether orally or virtually.I don't know what to reply to that person,or how to continue the conversation..I think i might be socially awkward at some point.
If any of you guys have any idea how to break the barrier,feel free to drop your opinion below.
And one of my goals is to write more often so that I get comfortable writing and i'm about to make a journal.But lets see how things went
1)Revision for the last 3 module in preparation for pro exam next year.
2)Learn more vocabulary
3)Speak up
4)Love myself more and stop comparing myself with other
Thats it! Oh and good news,yesterday I just got my final semester 2 result and I passed! For sem 2 i got B,sem 1 I got C.That's truly satisfying because I know the amount of blood,sweat and tears I had put throughout the journet :)
So continue,lately I just want to focus on myself and one thing that I notice about myself is that I tend to avoid things rather than face it.For example,when someone whom i am uncomfortable to speak text me,i tend to avoid the message by not opening whatsapp for a day.Then,next day or when i feel like to read the message or sometimes accidently,then i'll face it.
I think that is something i should not do because it seems unprofessional in other way,so i will try to change the habit.
Next, the thing that i don't favour about myself is,i'm not really good in conversation whether orally or virtually.I don't know what to reply to that person,or how to continue the conversation..I think i might be socially awkward at some point.
If any of you guys have any idea how to break the barrier,feel free to drop your opinion below.
And one of my goals is to write more often so that I get comfortable writing and i'm about to make a journal.But lets see how things went
Friday, 7 June 2019
Post Raya 2019
I'm going back to where I belong.To pursue what people call a dream is a difficult things to face especially after a week of holiday.Spending time with family,being lazy all day,having fun with the my nieces is just a splendid things to do.But now,it all comes to an end where everything is coming back to pieces and you gotta face it cause the time won't just stop and it keeps on going.
Raya 2019 is definitely one of my best raya I ever had.Maybe because I actually spent time with my family and we had a great picture together.Its gonna be a moment where i will always cherish it!
However,a week just past like that and people are going back to where we supposed to be and honestly i'm not ready for that.
Oh god,please help me by giving me the peace and guidance towards all the difficulties that I will face.Amin
Raya 2019 is definitely one of my best raya I ever had.Maybe because I actually spent time with my family and we had a great picture together.Its gonna be a moment where i will always cherish it!
However,a week just past like that and people are going back to where we supposed to be and honestly i'm not ready for that.
Oh god,please help me by giving me the peace and guidance towards all the difficulties that I will face.Amin
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