Honestly, I didn't feel anything when it comes to my birthday,for me it's just a day or a moment when I was born into the world and it's not a big thing (really not).
Anyway, as usual I always feel like a crap either the day before or on the day of my birth date.Am I supposed to celebrate it with a big/expensive cake and surrounded by my family and people,well I certainly haven't experienced that for quite a time or never... hmm I wonder.
Seeing other people (especially KIDS) being celebrated for their birthday sometimes sparks a moment in my life that I have never experienced that or being celebrated like that and for sure I felt jealous/sad/questioning my existance but sometimes when you were so used to feeling like that it become like a normal thing.AND for sure it's consider that normal in our society.
So,another year passers by and it just the same things all over again but still I'm beyond grateful for my life for everything that had ever happened to me,good or bad moments for the past 21 years of life,I will never forget about it. To compare my bad moments to people below than me makes me feel that I don't deserve to fell all negative about it frankly.
Regardless of everything.
